Showing posts with label Random. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Random. Show all posts

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Why?

I understand that politics will provide differences among friends. That is accepted. What I call foul or unnecessary is when friends post articles/videos that have negative racial overtones. We can debate all day long - not a problem. But to post items with vocals containing hatred and negative stereotypes negates all points you are intending. This belief is for all shades of us. Stop the crap. Ask if this will offend friends and families; and then ask why it would. The why is beginning. The why will (and if you continue to pursue the why) tell and show the need of more thought and understanding.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Happy New Year!!!

2012.

When I was younger I never considered years as I planned my path to adulthood.  A plan was always in place but there was never a definitive age or year for accomplishment.  (Might need to ponder on that.)  So I never contemplated what my life might be like in 2012.  Never.

Not to say that I did not have goals to accomplish.  College degree. Check.  A paying job. Check.  Graduate school. (Started, so semi check).  These were the main goals set upon by expectations.

What I do, what works best for me is to take life as it comes.  So when my credit was tanked and answering unknown numbers was Russian Roulette, I set up a plan to pull myself out.  When it came to my past demons taking control of me I went to therapy, wrote my heart out in my diary and made a plan of action on how to handle my triggers.  When it was time to step out of my comfort zone at work and seek a better position with more responsibility although I was scared shitless I did it and have not looked back.

So there no resolutions for me.  All I can do is take each day as it comes and react.  Remember my random thoughts of wants and dreams and make them happen.

Happy New Year!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

101 Update

Of course this was to be completed in November of  2010...life happened...

But I plan on completing it as best as I can with the time I have...

I am proud of what I am have been able to complete...


MoodyGemini's List
101 Things in 1001 Days

1. Add more memory to laptop  Never could add more memory, but the laptop died so June 2011 I got a new one.
2. Attend an Arts Festival
3. Attend at least one major sporting event: Super Bowl, the Olympics, US Open
4. Bake a cake for someone’s birthday
5. Become CPR Certified by American Red Cross
6. Blog daily (0/1001)
7. Buy a 35 mm SLR digital camera
8. Buy a bike and ride for 2 weeks
9. Buy a Kitchen Aid Artisan mixer  I was gifted an old school Oster mixer...I have know idea the year
10. Buy a Zune
11.Buy an external hard drive  A Christmas present, 2010!
12. Complete my profile on DNA Ancestry Project
13. Complete my profile on My Heritage
14. Create a standard grocery list
15. Create and maintain a goals calendar
16. Decorate my bedroom
17. Do a random act of kindness once per week (0/143)
18. Do yoga DVD once a week for 2 months
19. Donate $3 for every item I don’t complete
20. Drink 62 oz. of H20 per day (0/1001)
21. Eliminate miscellaneous debt
22. Establish a $5000 emergency fund
23. Fall deeply in love – helplessly and unconditionally
24. Fill up my charm bracelet
25. Fly in a hot air balloon
26. Get a job  July 2008, back at the old place...GDOL
27. Get a passport
28. Get a relationship
29. Get a Roth IRA
30. Get another tattoo
31. Get my teeth whitened
32. Go 200 days without being on the internet (0/200)
33. Go bungee jumping
34. Go one week without spending any $
35. Go paint balling
36. Go skydiving  June 2008, Thanks cuzo Chase!!!
37. Go to counseling
38. Grow herbs at home
39. Have a date on Valentine’s Day
40. Have a professional photograph taken
41. Have a Spa Day
42. Join a book club
43. Kiss or be kissed under a mistletoe
44. Learn how to horseback ride
45. Learn how to jog correctly
46. Learn how to make candles
47. Learn how to make homemade ice cream
48. Learn how to make my own beer
49. Learn how to make my own wine
50. Learn how to salsa
51. Learn to bartend
52. Learn to cook Cajun food
53. Let certain people go
54. Make a list of things that I am good at
55. Make a list of things that make me happy
56. Make a list of what I want to be good at or to know more about
57. Make a scrapbook for Cameron
58. Make love in the rain
59. Make my book of quotes with commentary
60. Make my own personal scent using essential oils
61. Make new list when this one is complete!
62. Participate in National Novel Writing Month
63. Pay back family/friends who loaned $ while I was out of work
64. Pay off car  April 2009
65. Payoff credit card
66. Purchase a new sofa  April 2011
67. Read 10 books from the banned list (0/10)
68. Read one biography a month
69. Read the entire list of 100 Essential Books by African-Americans
70. Save $60 monthly
71. See a show at the Fox Theater
72. See Brett Farve play
73. Sell a poem
74. Sell a short story
75. Start a recipe book
76. Start a thankful journey and write in it once a week
77. Start an online bookstore
78. Stop communicating with ex-boyfriend
79. Submit 5 works for publication
80. Submit an entry to PostSecret
81. Swim with the dolphins
82. Learn to belly-dancing class
83. Take a cruise
84. Take a drawing class
85. Learn to ballroom dancing classes
86. Take vitamins everyday (0/1001)
87. Teach someone illiterate to read
88. Travel to South Beach
89. Try to reconnect with cousin R.
90. Visit a historical house
91. Visit a museum
92. Visit African-American Museum in Macon, GA
93. Visit an art gallery
94. Visit my cousin Chase in Hawaii
95. Write a book for Cameron
96. Write a letter to former friend explaining why
97. Write a novella
98. Write a thank you note once a month for 6 months
99. Write a year-end (2008) newsletter for family and friends
100. Write everyday – a page, a paragraph, or a sentence (0/1001)
101. Write my personal mission statement

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Life...

Life.  We all have one.  Live one. Wish to have one. Everyday, whether morning or night we wake wanting a life.  A life which contains love, laughter, friendship, family, adventures and memories.

Often work brings us down.  Supervisor on our butts for not doing enough, being clueless, or just for having a bad day.  Family picks us apart because we are not married, our kids are bad or we do not call enough.  Friends are not around or when they are they disappoint.  And your significant other can either make you fall in love all over again or shake their neck.

Either way life can introduce exactly what you do not want when you wake up.  So how do you find the life that brings laughter and love?  How do you not allow the unwanted to trespass into you life?

Easy.

Not easy.

Each day you wake and say, "Today is a good day.  You will not still my joy of love and laughter that is my life.  I will find shine in every outing, encounter and every task.  My life will be filled with love and laughter."

The word "still" is not a misspell.  No one can take my joy.  All they can ever do is pause.  Hence the word still...not steal.  It will not be taken.

A struggle to keep this mantra is an understatement.  It is work everyday.  As you work to overcome your limits within your career.  Overcoming your cringe when your family embarrasses you or makes you feel less.  The friends you believed would be there for life are all falling by the wayside.  And that love of your life allows questions on why you said they are the love of your life.  All of it is a struggle.

That is life.  We struggle.  We have days when "Today is a good day" is enough.  And you are rewarded with a good day.  Others can be classified as day of memories.  How you interpret or maneuver these memories is a personal and day to day choice.

My advice...find good memories.


My memories...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Jobless benefits expire for thousands

This is the drama I will deal with for weeks.  No one can understand how they (the Senate) will go on a two week break when they need unemployment insurance and hiring new employees is at a standstill.  

Jobless benefits expire for thousands: "Extended unemployment benefits will temporarily expire for thousands of Americans on Monday because the Senate went on its spring recess without approving a one-month deadline extension.

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Thursday, March 25, 2010

Pat on the Back!!!

Y'all I got a PROMOTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, on March 16, 2010 I moved from Specialist to Advanced Specialist.  Not much in pay raise.  I am sure Uncle Sam will receive most of it.  Trust me.  But the hierarchy means I am more apt to have a supervisor or managerial position in the near future and that's the goal.  Plus having the years in to receive retirement from this place.  Less than a year away.

So I celebrate my good fortune and happiness.  I do enjoy the new look.  I work more with clients and speak with them.  There are challenges but I welcome them.  Much better than looking a papers all day.


****clapping for myself****

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Overhead at the Unemployment office....

> You know I am up there with Malcolm and Martin, what I say goes to the highest.  (Dude also had a 1997 Bobby Brown backstage pass hanging around his neck)

>  I bet you want step outside.  I am going to kick your arse.  I bet you won't.  Response: No you won't.

>  It's time for you go!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Random Thoughts

> I had a stomach virus or just a pissed off stomach this weekend.  I live alone.  No one I know has access to my apartment unless I go get them.  Do you know how much energy it took for me to drive to the Pharmacy and pick up meds?  And how many times I barfed in a 25 minute outing?

> Never thought I would say this...I have too many books...anyone want to buy a couple?

> When a "friend" hears that your baby/dog is gone and says, "Oh, you want to call me back?" tells you they really are not a friend.

> That outgoing person I always wanted to be is not going to happen.  I stay in my head too much.

> On Ponce there is a guy in a wheelchair who refuses to use the sidewalk.  Apparently he believes his 2 wheels equate to a motorcycle and he can use any lane he chooses.  All while using his feet to move the chair.  WTF?

> People at the Plantation have been talking about the Idol mess.  Now these are the same people that if you say one word, one word about their habits, lack of talent, poor work ethic or idiosyncrasies will get straight hood on you, but love to pick fun at other people.  I need someone to hold up a mirror.

> I am trying to grow Mint & Rosemary.  Wish me luck!

> As of right now, I will spend another Heart Day alone.  I kidnapped my nephew so I wouldn't have to spend New Year's Eve alone.  Looks like another kidnapping is in the works.

> I have a habit of searching and befriending "unavailable" friends.  I need a microscope.  Some investigating is needed.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

TMI Tuesday

'Would you rather...' edition

1. Would you rather be stranded on an island alone or with someone you dislike/don't get along with?
Most definitely stranded on an island...I don't deal with people I don't like.

2. Would you rather accidentally walk in on your parents having sex or have them walk in on you?
Me having sex. Already experienced the 1st not trying to go back.

3. Would you rather be snapped by paparazzi during a nipple slip or while exiting a car with out any underwear?(guys, consider similar circumstances)
Nipple. No question.

4. Would you rather not have sex for two years or not be able to use the Internet for two years?
Since it's been FOREVER since I have had sex...got to go with sex. I think. Might be a little horny.

5. Would you rather find true love or 1 million dollars?
True love. No diggty, no doubt.

Bonus (as in optional): If you had to choose *one* sexual position for the rest of your life, what would it be? Why?
Not even possible. 1....bs.


My Tribute!!!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

10 > 1.....

10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people
10. I am just not into you...get a grip....
9. I wish you could see your family is right here...learn about us and love us for who we are...
8. Pay me what I am worth damn it!
7. Old age does not give you the right to be cruel...yeah you can say what you want but remember feelings!
6. I am not sorry for being selfish....it is who I am...get over it
5. Keep fucking with my baby...I will give you what you deserve...bet on it
4. The workplace is not the venue to try out all of your different personalities...
3. I see why you lost your job...coming to the Labor Dept. smelling like a distillery...its business!
2. Take your big girl pill baby girl...time to be everything you are destined
1. I love you

9 Things about yourself
9. I play the tough girl....so sensitive
8. I am waiting for love...hopelessly
7. I am tired of doing it alone
6. Considering a sperm bank...don't judge
5. I neglect myself on a daily basis
4. I miss church...have not found one here
3. I am a nerd
2. I like the smell of Clorox
1. I never knew I was light-skinned until middle school

8 Ways to win my heart
8. Acceptance
7. Small things
6. Unconditional love...it is possible....
5. Respect
4. Understand the gift of family
3. When you see my load is heavy, pull up beside me
2. Encouragement
1. Your smile

7 Things that cross my mind a lot
7. Why do people always try to change other people? The greatness of humans is our diversity. Embrace it. You might learn something about yourself.
6. Making a comment about every single thing a person does makes me think of jealously. Someone is jealous.
5. What is my purpose?
4. Will my mask ever fall down?
3. Am I going to be the old lady with the dog?
2. Will I ever be happy with myself?
1. Why is everyone so angry?

6 Things I do before I go to sleep
6. Brush my teeth
5. Take the baby out
4. Fix water for the morning
3. Make sure that alarm clock is working!
2. Have a coke...I know
1. Have a long....long bath

5 People I couldn't live without
5. My Mom
4. My Princess
3. My Buddha
2. My Uncle Carey
1. Really that's it....

4 Things I am wearing right now
4. Old 911 sweatshirt
3. Old high school t-shirt
2. Aunt Dorothy's ring
1. Princess' old lounging pants...she has a Serena ass...can't fit!!! LOL

3 Songs that fit my life perfectly
3. All Cried Out ~ Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam
2. Yesterday ~ Mary Mary
1. Bleed it Out ~ Linkin Park

2 Things I want to do before I die
2. Kids
1. Love

1 Confession
My mask is up so much I wonder who I am most days....

A Moody Update

It's 2009 & I feel no different than 2008. Right now I am stressing out over rent. It's the same thing every month. New job does not pay for everything and my folks have to help. And here is the drama. Every month they ask how much, go through the whole song & dance of something has to change (it did I got a job). And I ask what? I can't make my job give me more money & my rent is not going to change. So exactly what is going to change? I am looking for a part-time job but hey I work in Unemployment. I know how bad it is out there. Very bad. Don't get me wrong I know how special and privileged I am to have my family and their contributions, but dang man...is that really necessary? To make me feel worse than I already do?

I am just tired of being stressed out. I really believed when I got a job a lot of my stresses would leave but that's not the case. I now have this awful habit of biting down on my teeth for hours. I could not figure out why I had so many headaches. (I never get headaches, just migraines.) Funny this is I didn't do any of this when I was unemployed. Sure I worried but it didn't physically manifest besides the weight loss. I am one of those people who doesn't eat when stressed. I know opposite of a lot of people.

And let's not talk about my lack of social life. None. Nada. And I really want to date now. I couldn't say that a year ago. Did not want to be bothered. Now that I do....& no one wants to be bothered with me! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On a happier note.....


Welcome to the World Courtney Reese!!! (My newest cousin!)










That's all folks....me & my friend Johnny are going to reacquianted.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Happy Birthday Cameron!!

Last year my baby sis gave birth to this....









As you can imagine we were not exactly excited. She was 18. Just graduated from high school. Had plans to go off to school. Well...plans changed and we adapted. Like everyone else who has dealt with changes in the plan.


Thankfully Cameron Isaiah was exactly what she needed. She is now a sophomore in college. By summer '09 she will have 63 hrs...a junior! Who would have thought it? But he kicked her in the butt real good. Better than I could ever. She has goals. She has dreams and wants for her and my Buddha. Life is good.



Now this is what we have...





And this is his 1st BIRTHDAY!!!!







HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDHA!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Because I am not Cool or Hip

I often read text messages & webpages where they use "text speak". I am not cool enough to dechipher half of what those abrrevations mean. So I went on a search for a dictionary...

Look what I found! Who knew? I will bookmark this so when someone does a UGTBK...I know what the hell they are talking about!

http://www.webopedia.com/quick_ref/textmessageabbreviations.asp

http://www.netlingo.com/emailsh.cfm

http://www.net-comber.com/acronyms.html

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

TMI Tuesday

Here it goes....!

This is a tribute to the late great George Carlin.

1. What is your language pet peeve. (example 'hot water heater', why would you heat hot water)
When people use prepositions at the end of a sentence. Whether written or spoken. Irks the crap out of me! (But I am not always dilligent with myself so don't go looking for it!)

2. What is your favorite word? Both dirty and clean?
Dirty:When I was younger my cousins & older brother taught me all the curse words. I use to sing them in a song...."Gotdamnmuthafucashitshit" I still love them all! My Mom use to hear me sing it all the time but in my little girls voice (probably around 5 yrs. old) she had no clue what I was saying! I told her later in life. LOL!!
Clean:Whatever. Said when you say something totally ridiculous!

3. What is the one word you cannot spell?
Um...that's what spell check is for. But I always have issues with convienence....too many "e's"

4. What is the one word you always pronounce wrong?
There isn't one word. If I am tired, my tongue gets very heavy. (That sounds wrong)

5. If you could erase one popular catchphrase from the english language, what would it be?
"Yeah, that's what's up"

Bonus (as in optional): The late, and very hot Michael Hutchence (INXS) once sang, "Words are weapons, sharper than knives" . What is the most hurtful thing you have ever said to anyone? Was it deliberate or accidental? What was the most hurtful thing ever said to you? Do you think it was deliberate or accidental?
I cannot repeat those words...but nothing about it was accidental.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

My Weekend with Buddha!!

I was blessed to keep my nephew Buddha this past weekend. It was heaven. & once again awakened my want to have a child...not right now! LOL

Here are a feel snaps of me loving him & him loving me! & others of him in Savannah & @ home...



@ Piedmont Park




His Mommie kissing him Goodbye


Notice that his head is @ the seat of the futon & legs against the back!




Fighting sleep...


@ Piedmont Park





in Savannah...how cool is he?


Waiting to get into my Apt.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

My Random Thoughts....

^ How long has it been since I have seen a Mom sitting with her child as he reads?

^ I am so tired of sleeping alone.

^ I sometimes think there is a lot of freedom in being crazy. People leave you alone & allow you to talk to the people in your head.

^ Seriously - Seriously, your pants fastening below your butt is not a good look. It really isn't.

^ I really believe men are moodier than women. Truly I do.

^ I wish I was that type of person who can use people for what they want. I really want a new smart-phone. NOW.

^ Giving me your phone # while there is a female in the car is not a good look.

^ If 1 more person comments on my weight...I will bitch slap you....fair warning.

^ Do you ever think blog-sphere is recreating your high school years?

^ ATL is full of Real Estate Agents trying to sell you a house. & they are clueless of the Webster dictionary definition of the word NO.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I Bit the Bullet

I follow Lola & have often laughed out loud with her TMI Tuesdays! So I decided to try my hand @ it. I can't promise a devotion. My only hope is that it makes me look @ myself more.

Enjoy!

1. What were you known as in HS (Jock, Princess, Geek)
Honestly, I have no idea. I was in all these special classes for smart people. Only 1 of 3 blacks in the classes throughout my 4 years. They were basically the same people I went to school with since kindergarten. I was a jock...gymnast for 16 yrs. & cheerleader. Smart ass all get up. Princess because of my family. Can I just say I never liked high school?

2. What were you really?
A shy, misunderstood, in pain, geek, overachiever in some aspects & underachiever in others. Really hated high school. Would never go back.

3. If you could go back and tell your 16 year old self one thing, what would it be?
Let it go. You can't control the people in your life. Change how you react.

4. If you could erase one moment from your school days what would it be?
I couldn't & wouldn't erase a thing. I am the wonderful person I am today. I just never would go back.

5. Who did you not date (or more) that you wish you did?
I dated who I wanted to. Never a doubt in that.


Bonus (as in optional): If you went to prom, describe your outfit.
I went to both Proms alone. & enjoyed myself. I received the customary "I thought someone asked you!" (That was because of the people I dated. They made sure I was off limits.) The 1st prom I wore a sweetheart-top of white, sand & blue sequin top with a Marilyn Monroe-esque skirt. Really cute. I borrowed the top from 1 of my great-aunts & my Aunt Dorothy made the skirt. My 2nd prom I wore a sequined blue fish dress. I looked like a ocean view. I also wore it in Beauty Review.---Think Homecoming in the Spring.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Showcasing

Check out my Daddy at this link!

My Randon Thoughts...

^Being nice & courteous to people does not take away from your paycheck. Try it sometimes. It makes the world better.

^I now have a bootleg laptop. Platinum decided to lay her fat, overweight, lazy behind on it and broke a key. Only b/c the Doggy police would come after me did I not beat her like I wanted to.

^Since I have removed myself from certain friends & family that disrupted my spirit I am really loving, enjoying, & relishing my friends that came forward. Their light shines so much brighter.

^I have a job! Did I mention that? I still need a part-time gig b/c the state don't pay. Does anyone know of any?

^What is up with these college athletes being charged with rape? Honestly, my crew use to consist of mainly jocks & former jocks and they were a mess. Is it b/c a lot are finally getting caught or these girls are wising up & saying you know what...this shit is not right?

^I refrained from commenting on the Supreme Courts ruling on guns b/c I did not understand a lot of the outrage. I am a gun owner. Licensed. Been shooting @ a range since I was 4. I am not afraid of the licensed people carrying guns around. The average gun owner who has that natural fear & understanding of gun usage will not be crazy with it. The person I worry about is the one who picks one up on the street with no knowledge of guns besides how to pull the trigger, a hot temper, nothing to live for, a beef w/ someone or just those crazy mf's out there. That's who you should fear. News report after news report had licensed people saying - no I will not take it on the train, bus or in a restaurant, but I will shoot you if you step into my house. That's me. Sorry if you don't agree with me.

^I am helping you file for unemployment. No when I finish you cannot take me to lunch. Remember you were laid off?

^One day I am going to stop my past hurts from manifesting in my today.

^Am I really ready for a relationship? I think I am scared to death!

^I told 1 of my guy friends about a semi-cry I had over a movie & his response---"Damn girl you are showing your soft side I might have to date you!" What the hell? Am I too hard for a guy to date?

^Is it wrong to remain friends w/ all of your ex's? Even the ones that completely destroyed your heart?

^I still have Parent issues.

^Being unemployed for 1 yr. has taught me a lot. I will share one day.

^I loved it when my Buddha (Cameron) crawled off his Mommie & came crawling to me mad & crying because I was leaving the room. And then sighed when I picked him up. That's love. It feels great.